Today, for the first time in a long time, I was intimidated by my mailbox.
It's not because I'm waiting for my college acceptance letters (that ship has sailed for now), I'm not anxiously awaiting a wonderful gift of money. No, nothing like that. I am waiting for a verdict, a ruling.
Anyone who has had to battle for custody or 'residency' of a child knows exactly how I am feeling this week, especially today.
I went to court last Friday, unrepresented legally, but with all the love and support I could get from my Heavenly Father. I was prepared and without fear, prepared until I heard "you will receive my ruling within the next week."
It is so hard to be intimidated by a completely inanimate and non-living thing. I am not even sure why it is the mailbox, why aren't I intimidated by the judge? Maybe it's because I know he's human and can be moved by the Holy Spirit.
So, for now, I will 'happily' be intimidated by only my mailbox.